1. Missing You Forever
© Sanaz Shokravi
it’s been 2 weeks today
that you finally got it your way
you left us here, without a farewell
leaving behind just your smell
everyone tells me to respect your decision
and understand that you fulfilled your mission
but they don’t understand my pain
they don’t know how it feels to be stuck under the rain
I wish I could hold you
and tell you that I love you
I wish I could understand
I wish I was there to hold your hand
maybe I could have changed your mind
the night that you decided to leave
and to no longer believe
I know you weren’t afraid anymore
of who would be waiting for you at the door
I finally saw your last letter
I was hoping it would make me feel better
instead I miss you more
and your last words made me swore
it made me wish you weren’t gone
because I don’t know for how long I can stay strong
it’s been 2 weeks I lost you brother
it’s been 2 weeks I lost my other
I wish you had given me the chance
to take one last glance
at you face filled with love
before you fly away like a dove
rest in peace brother
I hope you will no longer suffer
I will be waiting for you in my dreams
to re-live all those beautiful memories.
2. It Was Just Too Hard To Believe
I never thought,
I would see the day.
When you wouldn’t be there,
to show me the way.
You taught me the difference,
between right and wrong.
You always had a way,
but that was before you were gone.
You’d come in my room to play,
To tease and to tickle,
Oh.. you always made me smile.
I don’t know how you did it,
I’m not sure I really care.
But I know that you are with me,
I know that you are there.
I cry and I cry,
for what seems like forever.
But I know someday will come,
And we will be together.
One day you were there,
the next you had to leave.
I didn’t know what to do,
I didn’t know what to believe.
In front of my friends,
I tried not to cry.
But I kept wondering why.
Why this and why that,
why you had to go.
I tried my hardest,
not to let my feelings show.
I couldn’t just say,
my brother had died.
I knew nothing would change,
so I kept it all inside.
It took me quite a while,
to accept that you had died.
With that I want to say,
I miss you and goodbye.
3. Missing You
There is so much I wish to say
I think about you every day
I miss your laugh
I miss your smile
Neither lost nor forgotten…
I imagine them often
It just doesn’t seem real that you’re not around
I still look for you when I’m in town…
I’ll never forget on the 4th of July…
As I sat on the curb, tears filled my eyes….
I found myself looking for you…..
Until I realized what was true…
I will never again see your wave and your smile…
We won’t stand on the street and visit for a while…
No “how you doing Sis” with a big hug to follow….
No “what are you doing tonight” or “I’ll see ya tomorrow”…
All of these things, I cherish so dearly …
In my heart, I remember so clearly…
To make things worse…
Dad finally told me.
My birthday surprise he’d been withholding….
To pick me up and head to the beach…
A day with my “Dad” my little bro and me.
Instead….. on my birthday
I had just said good bye.
At your funeral, which was one day prior.
I still talk to you …
I know you can hear me…
Today I spoke of you and before I finished my sentence….
I could feel your presence…
Then .. a coincidence, or was it a sign?
The song that reminds me of you began to play…
As If you knew I was thinking of you this day…
I smiled.. feeling you were there with me …
Again… I sat remembering…
Tears filled my eyes as I listened to the song.
But this time I accepted that you are gone.
Six years later..
Seems like forever….
I’ve asked myself and I’ve talked to God…..
How could he take you away for so long?
The only answer that makes any sense is ….
You’re in God’s hands now…
As he planned
Watching us from above…
An Angel in heaven who will always be loved.